.+. jesuslovesyou .+.

120th post!

2006-11-12T10:26:00.000+08:00

Take me away, somewhere to watch the sunrise and sunset.
I realised, I still need you.

*the smiles & blushes* <3

119th post

2006-10-04T00:50:00.000+08:00

I'm troubled!
So many, so messed up.
I dunno what to do.
Sigh.. I got myself into such shit.
Only have myself to blame.
Too messy!! :(((

118th post!

2006-09-29T00:22:00.000+08:00

YEPP!!! We quitted out damn job!
*yay* (((((((((((((((((:

Alrighty, that was ytd. I had dance today. And I feel that it's really stressful. Although things are getting better, I still feel that I haven't been able to perform as well as I've expected myself to. And especially when it comes to heels, I waded in them. My dance teacher commented that I looked queer dancing on heels, whick further dropped my confidence level. I dont know, walking in heels is already weird, imagine dancing and spinning in them. Funny as it sounds, I still prefer my goo old chinese dance. Maybe it's the familiarity I grew up with, or the comfort I feel while dancing. Over here, msot of the times, I feel completely eager to get my steps right in a graceful manner. Damm, I'm still trying to get used to her style!!! I think it's me. Oh well, I am now considering hiphop and bellydance! I know I've been ranting about bellydance since.. well a long long time ago. I really wanna learn! If my mom agrees to sponsor, I hope. Honestly, I feel quite sick of modern and contempt already! Therefore, I thought of trying out hiphop. I used to tell people I cant do hiphop for nuts. Now, it's time to challange myself! I SHALL conquer hiphop!! =D

Well, havent met up with gaga for a LOoooooooooooooooooNG time! All that promo's fault!! I really hope that we'd be able to have a blast of fun after the exams. Sad to say, I know I havent been of the best support to him, but I've been trying. Sorry k. Hmmm. I'm so so looking forward to after next friday!! I keep thinking and dreaming 'bout it. Seems so near, yet so far away! Ahaha. Gogogo!!! Study hard K?! <3 <3

Went shopping with Michelle and Jo on tuesday. was nice meeting them again. Actually we kinda went restaurant hopping that day. I spent all my money!! Now I'm pokkai!! AHHHH!!!! *faints*

Speaking of which, I feel really bad today! Cos I actually let myself walk pass an old man asking people to buy tissue from him!!! ='( He looked really pitiful! But I was so really super broke, I just just... just walked past like that! SO hardhearted right?! After walking away for quite some time, I really wanted to run back to give him some money. But I didn't in the end. Disappointed in myself. He looked like he had some kinda skin disease. I still remember how he stood in the middle of the path begging people to help. But everyone kinda shunned him. Somehow, afraid the disease might be contagious. It's really sad. I always say how I hated i when I see people not helping when someone is in need, and there I am, being of of those who merely walked pass. I feel... like... shit. But still, I'll go back to give that old man some bucks tmr!! Hope he'll still be around. hee

I love WeeTing!! She always makes my day with all her crap and nonsense! Well, she's the lamest freak you can find anywhere I tell you. But still, I simply love her loads!! Thanks for always accompanying me everywhere!! =))

HAH! Gotta go catch some sleep. Dance tomorrow again. AHBOOOOOOOOOOOO!

117 post

2006-09-27T01:08:00.000+08:00

Been so long since I last updated.
Ahhhh. nobody reads my blog anymore. ))=

Ok, some random thoughts..

After so long, I feel really kinda disappointed to see the Pinkies gradually seperating. Remember how united and bonded we used to be during demo trainings? How we always went to Sentosa to suntan together? Sigh. I nearly feel that my plans for Pinkies physical training have gone down the drains. Or rather, it already did. Now it's down to me and WeeTing. I feel quite glad that at least one person shared the same goal as me and really wanted to train hard when it comes to tkd. I know that for everyone else, there are many outside activites and commitments. Maybe for you guys, tkd doesn't come in your top few priorities. I understand. But me and WeeTing will continue to train hard, in hope that one day, the Pinkies will gather together to train hard like we used to. (Right, Weeting??) I really wish we could all go to Korea together..

I havent been seeing or hearing much from # anymore. And sometimes, I really wonder if it was cause of *. After going to * once and not continuing anymore, I might have somehow or rather placed an unspoken strain between the both of us. I feel almost uneasy and maybe even 'guilty' when we're together. Though I know I shouldnt, at times I pushed the blame to * which soiled our friendship. Neither of us mentioned anything of such, and I'm not even sure if she felt the same. Although we might still look as close on the outside, but that something inside of me tells me that things're never the same again. I really missed those days. I remembered how she'd always joke about anything and everything, tell me lame stuffs and ask me stupid questions. She never failed to put a smile on my face. In fact, on all our faces. Still, I wonder if I might have been a little too sensitive. Maybe she is still who she used to be? Maybe I was just thinking too much. I still remember back then, before our exams ended, we said we'd go learn dance together. How I wanted Salsa and she wanted Hiphop. And we finally decided and Salsa Hiphop. We never did it in the end.

Well, I guessed we've all been too busy trying to keep up with our hectic lives...

116th post

2006-08-31T23:46:00.000+08:00

I cried to myself when I listened to that song, our song.

Taurus & Scorpio

2006-08-31T00:39:00.000+08:00

Taurus and Scorpio

When Taurus and Scorpio come together in a love affair, their union is nothing if not intense, whether that's in a positive or a negative way. They are opposite Signs in the Zodiac, giving them a special, complex connection. They can combine to make a whole, each partner's strengths balancing the other's weaknesses. Their sexual attraction is likely to be off the charts! Taurus and Scorpio have tons in common, but because their personalities are so powerful, they often swing between passionate love and passionate disagreement!

Taurus and Scorpio both have deep desires, Taurus for possessions and Scorpio for power. They're both concerned with wealth and resources, and they're both intensely passionate about all sorts of things. Taurus is a bit more self-focused than Scorpio, who is more concerned with their lover and immediate family. Both of these Signs have a great, deep-rooted need for security in a relationship, but with slightly different focuses. While Taurus prizes honesty and forthrightness and abhors infidelity, Scorpio loves to be mysterious. A Scorpio's need for security is more about the need to be constantly reassured that their emotional connection with their loved one is strong. The good thing is, Taurus needs this reassurance too -- and is also willing to provide it for their Scorpio lover.

Taurus is ruled by Venus (Love and Money) and Scorpio is ruled by Mars (Passion) and Pluto (Power). This combination is very intense, thanks to Pluto's influence, but it's an excellent balance of masculine and feminine energy. Scorpio and Taurus together form the basis of all love relationships -- love and passion. Venus and Mars go well together; Venus is about the beauty of romance, and Mars is about the passion of romance. Scorpio is smoldering and intense (and intensely sexual), and Taurus, a sensual and tireless lover, is attracted to this intensity. In turn, Scorpio enjoys the devotion inherent in Venus-ruled Taurus.

Taurus is an Earth Sign and Scorpio is a Water Sign. Scorpio tends to be very deep -- like an ocean, too much upset will cause a tidal wave! When Scorpio feels crossed by a lover, watch out for that Scorpion's tail, which can whip out and sting their lover without warning! It's a good thing that these two Signs are so strongly loyal to each other. But while Taurus is open, with everything laid bare on the surface, Scorpio is more secretive and inscrutable. They can both teach one another about their opposite views of life (direct versus complex). Another factor adding a tantalizing dimension to this union is the two Signs' mutual tendency toward jealousy. Taurus loves it when Scorpio displays their jealous -- it means Taurus is adored and appreciated!

Taurus and Scorpio are both Fixed Signs. This means they're both pretty stubborn and resolute once their minds are made up. Let's hope their minds agree -- if not, they're prone to fights the likes of which neither experiences with any other Sign. Taurus seems to prevail as the dominant partner, but that's not always the case. Scorpio can "win" through more devious means, such as employing emotional manipulation to get what they want. These partners must learn to discuss their views and needs openly and to reach a compromise if they want their union to be lasting and happy. This largely depends on Scorpio's ability to learn to trust Taurus. The relationship will only fail if the two partners truly cannot overcome their opinionated, fixed stances.
What's the best aspect of the Taurus-Scorpio relationship? Their powerful connection that can shine when obstacles to intimacy are cleared away. When Scorpio realizes that Taurus is there for the long term and won't create the misery that some Scorpios attract to their lives, this relationship can blossom.

114 post

2006-08-17T19:49:00.000+08:00

I missed the times when you were there for me no matter what.
The days when I knew I was the only one you truely cared about.
Every little things that you did.
We both knew.

How you used to motivate me to study,
and taught me math and science.
Of us studying together at Macdonalds
and our classrooms.
And when I always wanted to give up halfway through,
You never failed to think of new ways to make me strive harder.
You enabled me to find a purpose in my life and a goal to word towards.

How you learnt the piece when
I told you I liked it,
but I never got to hear it in the end.
How you told me things to make me a better person, and
there wasn't once I ever felt insulted.
How you always stood by me
to give me advises when
I'm at my lowest point in life.

How you helped me carry my huge bag or any other heavy stuffs.
How you opened doors for me,
bought meals for me and
made me feel like a little princess sometimes.
How you bought happymeal for me,
because you knew I liked the toy.
I remembered how we fixed the toy together and filmed it down.
And you got laughed at be the casher.
How you bought vitaminC for me
when I kept falling ill.
I remembered you even bought the kids type so that I'd like it more.

How we could spend all our times together and not get bored..

In the end we needed to go and
I remembered how we kept promising to keep in touch no matter what.
Of how we said we'd meet up at least once a month.

Thanksforallthetimes.
I'llrememberyoufortherestofmylife...

113 post!

2006-03-21T12:23:00.000+08:00

SENTOSA ROCKS MY SOCKS!!
Saturday:
woke up at 6am to get ready.
met gaga and headed to harbourfront.
almost everyone was late.
we had breakfast at the nearby hawkercentre.
then we were off to sentosa!! yay!
some of the ppl didn't turn up last minute.
but we still had fun though.
played beach vball and kayaked.
the suntanning was good too!
i love the sun!! =)
later in the evening,
we cabbed down to bukit timah for dinner,
and had training at tohyi after that.
I cabbed home, and was back just before midnight.

GRADING
Sunday:
woke up at 6 again.
I'm so not used to gettin up early anymore.
so I had to force myself outta bed.
rushed down to geylang west.
sparred with meixian.
then as usual, we lunched at geylang.
Sir drove us to suntec to shop.
it was quite weird but fun shopping with them.
but we all kept stopping to eat.
we went back in the evening.
I was totally exhausted.

MONDAY
I merely slacked my day thru at home
I was too shagged to move too much.
Managed to find that bit of motivation
to head to the gym though.
it feels good working out again. :]
went out to buy lunch,
and i fell asleep halfway thru lunch and tv
kinda overslept,
and was late for tkd.
the kids there are difficult to teach.
but I survived that anyway. haha

TUESDAY
today, I still can't help but slack.
I'm really too tired to do anything.
and sth sucked away my enthusiasium.
I feel so seperated and tired.
I don't know what to do.
but well, life goes on.
I really missed those days
which i'll nv experience again.
at least not in the couple of years.
things are different now,
I guess we just have to live to
adapt to changes.
that's life anyway.
I MISS YOU.
well, think i'm going to the library later.
c'ya soon~

112th post!

2006-03-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

I'm still loving every single bit of you.

thanks, my favourite <3.

111th post

2006-03-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

Went Sentosa today! FUNN~~
yay! I'm black and burnt.
I missed the sun! =)
Had yummy fruitti pizza
plus siloso's 'fruitti' salad.
Then Ben & Jerry's.
gosh! No wonder I'm putting
on those pounds. ='[

Hi Fungi.
I'm getting fatter and uglier.
Lol. so don't worry girl!!
I'm worse than you.
*enormous SOBB*

Postings tomorrow.
Hope I get into TP!
hahaha. oh ya,
I wonder if Suling'll get
into sr or np.
#If you're reading this,
FREAKING TELL ME TMR!!!#
And let's go Sentosa one day.
been ages la, pls. (((=

Thanks for the day gaga.muack!

110th post

2006-02-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

>
>>
>>. thanks for da rings gaga.
ILOVE'EM!! muaaccckkkk!

108th post!

2006-02-19T15:53:00.000+08:00

Hi. I'll be going to TP!
and joining dragonboating.
Guess what, TP has it's very
own water sporting ground!
which is Bedok reservior.
I mean, tp adopted it la.
So cool right?!

Days are passing so quickly.
Very soon, we won't be meeting
one another every day.
I'll surely miss those times.
When we meet every morning,
stroll to work together,
have lunch together,
work together,
go home together.
Hmmm.
Those were the times,
I'll never forget ever.

I know things'll nv be the same.
I dread March.
I don't wanna be independent
all so soon.
But I guess it's inevitable.
We've just gotta live thru it.
The long bus n train journeys
will never be the same. Ever.

Perhaps it'll be difficult for us to
meet up after that.
Rare for us to sit together
for a simple meal again.
We might not have time to msg
throughout the day,
won't be able to talk on the
phone at night till late.
Sigh. Why?!

Song= saygoodbye.
"sometimes goodbye though it hurts in
your heart it's the only way for destiny.
sometimes goofbye though it hurts it's
the only way for you and me.
though it's the hardest word to say.
I'll miss your love, in every way.
so say goodbye, but don't you cry,
cos' true love never dies."

I love this song.
goodbye~

107th post!

2006-02-18T17:01:00.000+08:00

I'ma drinking coffee now,
and it sucks!
I've always hated the bitter
taste of it all.
and that sickening smell
which ppl term, "aroma"

well. I guess it's true that ppl
tend to do things they dislike
while they're in a foul mood.
Evidence?
hmm. I'm not in an exactly
good mood here.
there, you see it.
coffee tells it all!

sorry. I just wrote some
pointless comments.
but yea, it ran thru my mind.

I went for lasalle audition ytd.
it was challenging I'd say.
The ppl there are damn good!
and I couldn't help but feel
that inferior complex building
up as I mimicked their routine.
For once, I felt real clumsy
while dancing and I hate it!

It was only ytd during the audition
I finally made a decision.
I'm going poly.
maybe after seeing this middle aged
lady coming for the audition,
I fianlly realised that I
needn't waste my younger years.
I could do dance maybe after poly!
I just needed a decent diploma,
so that maybe I'll be able to survive
in this increasingly competitive society

YES> I'm going to a poly!
tell me I made the right choice. =)

106th post!

2006-02-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

LASALLE or POLY??
~in a dilemma.

105 post!

2006-02-05T14:36:00.000+08:00

HEY!!
I'm so bored,
stayin home on a sunday afternoon
tmr's work again.

Results'll be out soon,
I'm having butterflies in my stomach!
Sigh. I dunno how I'll do.

Had my photoshoot ytd,
was pretty ok.
I hope e shots turn out well.
I wanna be thinner! Sobb.
Then went to meet Gaga with my
oh-so-horrible makeup.
It was super thick!
but cos' of the lightings n all la.
yea, n my eyes were disaster!
Had training at night,
with my dark weird eyes.
I kinda lost my feel in tkd,
I dunno why.
Maybe it's cos of work.
which sucked all my energy
and enthusiasm away.
my kickings' like shit. sobb.
and I'm gettin real lazy to move

Martin went to meet us ytd.
gaga's good friend.
he's quite nice la.
Then he went to tkd with us.

I lost my wallet!
and i was very upset over it.
but gaga makes me happy!
=))))))))))))))))))

Don't feel like bloggin no more.
I wanna get back e feel for tkd.
I miss it!!

Ohya, pray i pass e auditions to lasalle pls!?!?!

104 post!

2006-01-30T18:32:00.000+08:00

Hi, I'm back!
After days of exhaustion from work,
I'm finally getting 4 whole days for break!
And of course, I really needed that.
My current job at Synovate
really proves eye-taxing!
Yet the pay's good, well
good things don't come
without hard work anyway.

But still, I MISS GAGA!
Seems so long since we last met.
Haha, nvm.
We're gonna meet up tmr anyway!
Yipee!!!! =))
I can't wait to go out with gaga and
enjoy ourselves like how we used to.
*smiles*

There'll be this cousins dinner
tomorrow night.
One of my cousins is bringing
her boyfriend along!! Muahaha.
Quite excited actually.

This year's new year's kinda gloomy.
Erm. sth like my "cousin" got arrested
by the police on the reunion night.
My aunt's deeply depressed.
Well, who wouldn't?
But I've never seen tt "cousin" before.
And know what he's being caught for?
Like he was suspected of being a loan shark.
Hmmmm.. well, I'm in no position to judge.

Results are coming out real super soon!
I'm so afraid, really!!
Yet the thought of what new life I'd begin
often sends those adrenaline thru me.
But then again, I often shudder to
think that I might score real badly. =(

Haha. I miss my friends! <3
and GAGA of course.

Goodbye~

103th post!

2006-01-15T20:21:00.000+08:00

Ten things I'm sad about...

#1. I can't find tt sacred thingy
#2. I dunno wat to wear for my photoshot tmr!
#3. I can't find a suitable top
#4. I wannt get a pair of sneakers
#5. I can't find a nice diary I like
#6. I won't get a stable income
#7. I can't find a nice book to read
#8. I'm such a lazy pig
#9. Relationship with godbro is bad
#10. I dunno wat's e last thing I'm sad about!!

LOL. but these aren't really
bothering me for the moment,
since I'm talkin to gaga now. Yay!
Sobb. gaga is incapable of the
slightest bit of jealousy!!! ="(
I think he doesn't like me anymore!!!
*WAILSS*

Went to Chinatown with my parents
today. it was really boring.
The stuffs there were horrible,
especially clothes.
The earings were nice though =)
but I couldn't find one tt I really liked.
Saw my cousin & his children there.
Met Weeting and Ginni there. (((:

I did something stupid today.
apparently Chinatown was so crowded
I thought I saw gaga there.
How dumb can I get when
I'm actually msgin gaga!?
Aiyoo. So I gaily tapped on his back
like I knew him for yrs,
and saind, "HARLOO!!"
when he turned back I was like,
"oh SHIT!!"
so paiseh la!
Can't stand myself.
But anyway, jason was nice.
He laughed it off and
we became friends! YAY!

hmm. where are all the stuffs I
used to go gaga over?!
Maybe I'll go ask Suling.
I remember how we used to see
all the nice stuffs we wanna get.
But I can't find any anymore!!
Haha.

Kk. don't feel like bloggin further.
Byeeeee~

To gaga: Bejealousla,saguylalala.

103th post!

2006-01-14T12:14:00.000+08:00

Hi, I'm so bored.
Waiting for Gaga to finish openin
his bank account now.
Sooooo long! haha.

Suling's crazy over Melvin,
though I thought his recent pic
looks horrible!!
muahahhaha. sorry su`ling.
Ians look better, both of them!
YAY!!
The only reason why you're still in YJ.
heehee *cheeky grin*

There's the singh's tournament today,
I think Xiaoxue's going to help out.
Too bad we can't go mann,
we've gotta attend a super boring
job course. bleh.

Had a great conversation with noti ytd.
Thanks for listenin dude.
haha. I guess I've never really treated
noti like he was younger than I am,
he just felt mature for his age I guess.
But yup! You'll be turning 16 super soon!
Perhaps that's the reason I guess.
I always click with capricon ppl. YAY!

Oh yaya, I'll be going for my photoshoot
this coming monday.
I'm pretty nervous actually,
cos' I'm not exactly photogenic and all.
Hmm. anyway, apart from that,
my new dance studio will be at Newton!
Right beside the food centre.
Yumyum! I love the food there. popiah!
Haha. It's pretty cool right.
I can't wait to go there and attend lessons!

Hmm. I'm still bored..
there's tohyi training today.
Maybe I'll blog more later tonight.
*yawn*

102th post!

2006-01-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

Harloo!!!!

HAPPY FRIDAY da 13TH!
Anything shitty happened today?
If yes, don't grouch over it too long yea,
you'll look uglier. muahahaha.
Sorry I'm mean.

But for me, I had a wonderful day out
with Gaga, of course! =)))
We went round town today.
Watched heirloom after lunch.
I tell you, the movie is CRAP!
It was so super un-scary.
There was literally no scary scenes at all.
We couldn't even see e horrid ghosts' faces
cos they were rewinded n walking damn quickly.

After that, we went to FarEast to have
NewZealandsIceCream!! Yay!
I had hokeypokey plus limesobert,
Gaga had cookies'n'cream plus tiramisu.
YUM! YUM!! (:
I wanted to look for a new diary but
was rather disappointed that none of them
really caught my eyes.
Plus the diaries are soft covers! Sobb'

Ohya, there's that boring job course
we'll be attending tmr.
Did I mention? It's freaking 4hours!!
I'm so dead :
I'm like stilll contemplating whether
I'll be able to like....
wear FBT for the course?!!? Pls?!
Haha cos' there'll be tkd after that anyway.
I'm so lazy to dress up these days.
Sorry gaga.

Yup, nothing much happened already.
I love malay food!
Let's try indian ones next time kk?

Togaga: Idon'tlikeitwhenyouain'tjealous.hpmmph!

Byebyeee~

101th post!

2006-01-12T12:29:00.000+08:00

I woke up at exactly 12 today.
Ytd was a tiring day, yea
actually not really,
but I kept waking up and all.

Gaga's not feeling well at all!
I guess it's e mac's burger ytd.
Maybe only e bread was contaminated,
Muahahaha!!!! :p
Cos I only ate the meat inside.
Sorry gaga, I couldn't accompany you
thru the night. I was really tired.
Hope he's feeling better. =]

I kinda had fun ytd actually.
No more lazy pig!
I went to the gym in the morning.
Was kinda satisfying. mann,
I haven't stepped into a gym in months!
And all the endorphins rush after that
exercise made me feel all the better. YAY

After gym, I went back home to bathe.
I actually fell asleep in the bath tub again.
Lol. the weather's too good I guess.

Initially I was intending to meet Suling at YJC.
I missed her like crazy!!
But since it was poring madly out there,
I decided to be lazy and wait for her at da mrt instead.
Her hair's grown out already,
no more bad hair days! Yay!
Met eunice at the mrt as well.
At first I was actually trying to decide whether
or not she's Eunice or a fresh sec1 girl.
Her belt's like super high,
pinafore's super long,
socks are super high,
and bag is super high!

Then we went to delifrance to have dinner.
We chatted up so much.
It's been ages since we last had a meal together.
And it was good!
Suling likes bitter coffee. Sadist. Lol.
We wanna go crash ur school!! okok?

Went to meet Gaga at bugis after that.
We were intending to attend a job orientation.
It was extremely boring! say, near 3hrs.
And I was struggling not to yawn cos
I was sitting in the first row,
right in front of the speaker.
Bad choice, he kept asking me questions.
Gaga looked really bored and dead as well.
I simply dread to think of the 4hr course this Sat.
Speaking of which,
I just realised that I promised to teach ben tt day.

Anyway back to ytd's thingo,
as I was saying, me and gaga went to mac
after that damn boring talk.
Everything's going great, cos he's super nice.
With the exception of cury sauce on hair incident.
We've been looking cheesy together in fact,
but I don't really bother.
So long as we're happy together. Yay!

Gaga sent me home after that.
the trip was... i'm not sure.
Filled with dilemma n love n tears, maybe.
Gaga made a vast decision last night.
It bothers me so,
in someway or another. Well~

GTG.
Heading to the gym again.
Loving you, gaga.

Tata=

100th post!

2006-01-10T21:27:00.000+08:00

Lol. this is suposedly my 100th post.
If I haven't deleted my past posts tt is.
Well, if you actually realised,
I'm slowly beginning to delete all the unhappy
posts piled up during the past 2 years.
Haha. and it's all because of Gaga.
I'm gonna start a happy new life with him. =))

I'm so in love!!
With dogs, that is.
Muahahahaha!
DOGs are the cutest creatures on earth!
Not convinced? look below.

4th-runner-up~

3rd -runner-up~~

2nd-runner-up`

1st-runner-up!

and the CHAMPION!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)))

Haha. cute right??!
One more last tinsy one..

That's BooFoo in e jeep checkin' out his new haircut!

=))
Okie! I've gtg.
Yay! There's tkd lesson tmr.
Hope I can get to the gym earlier.

c'ya!!

Ninety-ninth post!

2006-01-09T23:47:00.000+08:00

Just finished painting the other 2walls of my home
I don't really like the colour combination though.
It's sth like peach colour.
I dunno, I just don't think tt peach n kiwi match.

Anyway, it's raining heavily once again.
Noti, Xiaoxue n Ben are coming over to mug today!
Yay!! I'm so bored at home.
Too bad gaga cannot make it. Sobb.

Oh ya, the Thailand's trip is cancelled!!
That's so saddening!
Although I was kinda disappointed,
but ya, I could understand.
My Sir's sis passed away in a car accident.
I pray she rest in peace in heaven.
Hopefully Sir wouldn't be too upset.
Well, we can always go Thailand another time.
Maybe the next time, it'll be KOREA!!
10times more exciting than Thailand! Yay!!

Nothing much to blog today.
I'm missing GAGA!! haha.
Thanks for being so nice.
Love ya~

Maybe I'll blog again tonight k?
Byeeeeeeeeee` =)))

Ninety-eighth post!

2006-01-08T18:44:00.000+08:00

Haha. I'm back.
Just finished painting my house today.
It's somesort of kiwi apple green
on 2 walls of the living room.
I like it! cos' we painted the walls as a family.
Mom says that I could paint my room as well,
I want it dark purplish, you know,
that international gay colour. muack!

My blog is finally near completion,
but I'm not too sure if I like it.
Yes, I do love those ballet shoes and all.
But the colour scheme's weird. Lol.

I'm so glad! (((((((((:
Gaga finally got his blog!
Yay yay YAY!!!!!!
It's damn amusing cos' he's still busy trying
to figure out where the buttons are.
Muahahahaha.
And he doesn't want me to help!
HPMMPHHH!!! *folds arms*

I wanna wanna wanna go THAILAND!!!
I know I've said it ytd,
but it seems like my mom's agreeing
and disagreeing.
And frankly, I cannot read her mind.
She's really unpredictable. Lol.
Oh ya, guess what?
I was just pestering her again about it la,
and she insisted that I had to finish eating
3 packets of duck rice if I wanna go!
Hahaha. What a joker!
And my Dada's cute.
He's like completely stuck in between
my Mom and me.
Oh well~
Women are after all difficult creatures to handle!

Oopsy! I've gotta go help out again.
Thanks to Nippon paint!!
The house doesn't smell at all of paint!
Okie. Bye ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<3

Ninety-seventh post!

2006-01-07T11:47:00.000+08:00

HARLOOooo!!
It's Saturday today,
I'm meeting XiaoXue later for our hair cuts.
YAY :)))))))))
I've been dying to cut my hair alr la.
Then we'll go have our very delicious popiah!
DOUBLE YAY!! (=

I am pretty nervous now since the O's results
will be out like freaking next month!!
Sick phobias keeping coming to me.
Like how there might be a human errata,
and then they'll fail my whole O's,
and then I've gotta retake my O's again.
And I've gotta stay in Anderson again,
facing all my juniors,
attending classes with younger ppl.
OH-MY-GOSH!!!!!!!!!!
*pullsoutallmyhair*

Alright, maybe not that bad.
But I'm really realyl afraid that I wouldn't
get thru LASALLE AUDITION!!!
It's by far one of the most important things
in my life now!
With the exception of gaga, of course.
Nevertheless, I have just applied for the degree studies.
and no, I haven't sent it in yet.
Not until my results are out, of course. hmm.

I wanna wanna wanna go THAILAND!!
But Dada said that I will be damn irresponsible,
cos' I'll be having a job in hand.
If need be, I have to choose between job n thailand.
I know, I guess I really wanna go Thailand la.
I mean, I can always work after that.
Hmmm. But the ppl haven't called us for training!!
Well, back to Thailand.
I'm in a dilemma!
Should I? or should I not? join the sparring tourn.??
Erm... I'll think about it.

I don't want the results to come out yet!
cos' it'd mean having less time for everything.
And also a change from this laidback lifestyle.
I'm afraid of the different challenges
I'll very soon bbe facing,
but yet the inner side of me never fail to send
an adrenalin flow thru my body every time
I ponder and dream about my future.
I guess the thing that sets me all excited
is the very new lifestyle I've been
wanting to have all my life.
Yet again, I start panicking about the
different lives we'll be leading thereafter again.
Well, maybe it's just life where we have to
sacrifise sth in exchange for dreams.
and maybe God made this a challenge for us
both to endure this period of our tertiary education.
I really want us to grow up together.

~*To gaga,
Dreams are there for us to pursue.
If I'm ur light, you're my sun.
Everytime you crumble,
I get colder.
So let's work hard together to
pursue our dreams.
We will get there one day,
we will never give up!
]PERSERVERANCE[*~

Ninety-sixth post!

2006-01-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

Hey! I'm back from tkd demo already!!
Things have been going great.
Our demo and stuffs,
and it's really heartwarming to know that
all our efforts have proved worthwhile!

Here're some pictures of our demo team..

Our demo team at SwissOtel.

Yes, we were all wearing pink! but it's nice.

Roger sir bought the sweaters for us. how sweet~

Left to right..

Top row [guys]: GY, GR, Noti, BenC, Ant.

Bottom [girls]: Lyn, Car, HX, XiaoXue, WT.

Yup! After demo, we all went to suntec Marche for dinner.

I felt a tinsy bit of sadness cos' we won't be meeting up again everyday!

Well, I'm probably not very used to changes in life. Haha.

Life is really a bliss now that I've met him.

I simply cannot imagine life without him.

And I really dread the thought of school reopening,

thus not being able to meet up often.

Hmmmmm~ we shall see anyway..

Apart from tkd, I havent really started much on dance yet.

Friends from lasalle said it's really tough to get thru auditions.

And I'm not sure if I'm dreading or looking forward to it, really.

Sigh, I hate to admit it, but I guessed my dreams of becoming

a professional dancer is drifting further n farther from me. =(

I'm such a slack, a failure..

GY and I went for the banquet interview few days back.

Apparently, the ppl haven't contacted us. Hmm..

It's really kinda boring at home cos'

most of my friends are in the first 3months jc thingo.

In fact, I had this slightest bit of regrets not applying for PAE.

Just to console myself, I'm not going to a JC anyway.. haha

YIPEE!! It's friday today.

Which means it's Saturday tmr!!

And we're going for Tohyi. lalala~

I pray I can go to Thailand..

Till then... c'ya! =)

Song= No Doubt- Running

2005-04-05T07:55:00.000+08:00

*/Old song, but this song's an ear worm, keeps runnin' in my head..
The lyrics are beautiful! And I shall insist tt this song must be played on my weddin' day!--. ]

Song= No Doubt- Running

Run, Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me, I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
And I'm so sorry that I've fallen
Help me up, let's keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love

Running Running as fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it
(Do you think we'll make it)
Running, keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated

Be, Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me

Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so hard to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

Running Running as fast as we can
I really hope we'll make it
(Do you think we'll make it)
Running, keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated

Running Running as fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it
(Do you think we'll make it)
Running, keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated

Running Running as fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it
(Do you think we'll make it)
Running, keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated

Song=Mario Winans Featuring Enya & P. Diddy- I don't wanna know

2005-04-01T09:30:00.000+08:00

Song=Mario Winans Featuring Enya & P. Diddy- I don't wanna know

[Verse 1]
Somebody said they saw you
the person you were kissing wasnt me
and i would never ask you
i just kept it to myself

[Chorus] I don't wanna know
if your playin me keep it on the low
cuz my heart cant take it anymore
and if your creepin
please dont let it show
oh baby i dont wanna know

[Verse 2]
i think about it
and i hoped you
when lookin in your eyes
i cant believe
i dont need to know the truth
baby keep it to yourself

[Chorus]
I don't wanna know
if your playin me keep
it on the low
cuz my heart cant take it anymore
and if your creepin
please dont let it show
oh baby i dont wanna know

[Verse 3]
Baby taught you better than this
Baby i want to fall asleep
But your showin all those things
that you used to do to me
if your better off that way
baby all that i can say
go and do your thing
and stay away from me

[P.Diddy]
I dont really know your where-abouts
or how you movin
but I know
when your in the house
and when your cruisin
its been proven
my love you been abusin'
I can't understand how a man got you choosin
undecided I came improvided
my undivided
you came and denied it
dont even try it
I know when your lyin
dont even do that
I know why your cryin
im not applying any pressure
I just want to let you know that
I dont want to let you go
and I dont want to let you leave
you cant say
I didnt let you breathe gave you extra cheese
put you in the SUV
you wanted ice
so I made you freeze
made you hot like the western bees
now its time you invest in me
if not than its best you leave

[Chorus: x2]
I don't wanna know
if your playin me
keep it on the low
cuz my heart cant take it anymore
and if your creepin
please dont let it show
oh baby I dont wanna know

*/Nice song huh? Seems like love can be true and great after all..--^ =]

Song= Alicia Keys- If I ain't got you

2005-03-06T04:46:00.000+08:00

Song= Alicia Keys- If I ain't got you

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within

And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
The promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

Hand me a world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share,
with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

]]- I just love tis' song, the only thing that can express how I'm feeling now..

*/-Tell me, tell me when I'll really be able to see the light again,

But I know that's only when I'm back in your arms again.. + /

Song=Usher Alicia Keys Beyoncé -My Boo

2005-02-11T11:55:00.000+08:00

Song=Usher Alicia Keys Beyoncé -My Boo

(Usher):
There’s always that one person that will always have your heart
You never see it coming, cause your blinded from the start
Know that your that one for me, it’s clear for everyone too see
Ooh baby, Oooh, You will always be My boo

(Alicia Keys):
Yeah Uh, Uh, Uh
I Don’t know about y’all, but I know about us
And this the only way we know how to rock
I Don’t know about y’all, but I know about us
And this the only way we know how to rock

[Verse 1](Usher):
Do you remember girl
Who was the one that gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and people, screaming your name
Girl I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus](Usher):
It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boooo)
Now an other brother is taking over, but it’s still in your eyes (my boooo)
Even though we used to argue it’s alright (it’s alright girl that’s oke) (my booo)
I know we haven’t seen each other in a while
But you will always be boooo

(Alicia Keys)
I was in love with you when we were younger you were mine (my booo)
And I see you from time to time, I still feel like (my boooo)

(Beyoncé)
And you can see it no matter how I try to hide (my booo)
And even though there’s another man who’s in my life (my booo)
You will always be my boo

[Verse 2](Beyoncé):
Yes I remember boy, cause after we kissed
Said I’m never gonna wipe my lips
Yes I remember boy, that you were the one
That I said I’d grow old with
Even before all the fame and people, screaming your name boy
I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus](Usher & Beyoncé):
It started when we were younger and you were mine (you were mine)
Now an other brother is taking over, but it’s still in your eyes (yes it is, my boo)
Even though we used to argue it’s alright (it’s alright it’s alright babe) (my booo)
I know we haven’t seen each other in a while (haven’t seen each other)
But you will always be boooo

(Alicia keys)
I was in love with you when we were younger you were mine (my booo)
And I see you from time to time, I still feel like (my boooo)
And you can see it no matter how I try to hide (my booo)
And even though there’s another man who’s in my life (my booo)
You will always be my boo

[Verse 3](Alicia keys):
Yes I remember boy, cause after we kissed
I could only think about you lips
Yes I remember boy, the moment I knew
You were the one I could spent my life with
Even before all the fame and people, screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus](Usher & Alicia Keys)
It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boooo)
Now an other brother is taking over, but it’s still in your eyes (my boooo)
Even though we used to argue it’s alright (it’s alright it’s oke) (my booo)
I know we haven’t seen each other in a while
But you will always be boooo

(Usher & Beyoncé & Alicia keys)
I was in love with you when we were younger you were mine (my booo)
And I see you from time to time, I still feel like (my boooo)
And you can see it no matter how I try to hide (my booo)
And even though there’s another man who’s in my life (my booo)
You will always be my boo

Song= Nelly-Over and over

2005-02-09T09:42:00.000+08:00

Song= Nelly -Over and over

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause it’s on in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it yeah I can’t shake it
Nooo

I can’t wait to see you
Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes
That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes
And it’s a shame that we got to spend our time
Being mad about the same things
Over and over again
About the same things
Over and over again
Ohh
But I think she’s leaving
Ooh man she’s leaving I don’t know what else to do
(I Can’t go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its on in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again yeah
And I can’t take it yeah I can’t shake it
Nooo

I remember the day you left
I remember the last breath you took right in front of me
When you said that u would leave
I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything
But I see clearly now and this chose
I made keep playing in my head

Over and over again
Playing my head
Over and over again
Ohh
I think she’s leaving
Ooh man she’s leaving
I don’t know what else to do
(I Can’t go on not loving you)
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its on in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it I can’t shake it
Nooo

(Now that I’ve realizes that I’m going down
From all this pain you’ve put me through
Every time I close my eyes I like it ?
I can’t go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its on in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it I can’t shake it
Nooo

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its on in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it
I can’t shake it
Nooo

Over and Over again
Over and Over again
Cause it’s all in my head

Song= Daniel Bedingfield - Gotta Get Thru This

2004-11-15T06:36:00.000+08:00

Song= Daniel Bedingfield - Gotta Get Thru This

If only I could get through this
I get through this
I gotta get through this
I gotta get through this
I gotta make it, make it,
make it through
I'm gotta get through this
I gotta get through this
I gotta take my, take my mind off you
Give me just a second and I'll be all right
Surely one more moment couldn't break my heart
Give me 'til tomorrow then I'll be okay
Just another day and then I'll hold you tight
When your love is falling like the rain
I close my eyes and it falls again
When will I get the chance to say I love you
I pretend that you're already mine
Then my heart ain't breaking every time
I look into your eyes
If only I could get through this
If only I could get through this
If only I could get through this
God, gotta help me get through this
I gotta get through this
I gotta get through this
I gotta make it, make it, make it through
Said I'm gotta get through this
I gotta get through this
I gotta take my, take my mind off you
Give me just a second and I'll be all right
Surely one more moment couldn't break my heart
Give me 'til tomorrow then I'll be okay
Just another day and then I'll hold you tight
When your love is falling like the rain
I close my eyes and it falls again
When will I get the chance to say I love you
I pretend that you're already mine
Then my heart ain't breaking every time
I look into your eyes
If only I could get through this
If only I could get through this
If only I could get through this
God, gotta help me get through this
If only I could get through this
God, gotta help me get through this
If only I could get through this
God, gotta help me get through this
If only I could get through this...

Why, did you teach me how to love, and leave me behind?
Why, did you make me not able to love another again?
Why? This world's unfair.

Song= Sclub7 - Have you ever

2004-11-10T15:46:00.000+08:00

Song= Sclub7 - Have you ever

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away,
though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
Can't help but think that this is wrong,
we should be togetherBack in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me,
BabyHave you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone,
I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be takingI should know,
cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

Song= M2m- The Day You Went Away

2004-11-03T07:16:00.000+08:00

Song= M2m - The Day You Went Away

Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid
after all of this time

Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey, So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

The day you went away
The day you went away

Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much
I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away
The day you went away

Song= Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing

2004-10-26T12:44:00.000+08:00

[Hey this is a beautiful song, one of my all-time favourites and i'm dedicating this to all the couples in the world, my friends and most importantly You! =]

Song= Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and
thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Song= Britney Spears - Everytime

2004-10-20T13:00:00.000+08:00

Song= Britney Spears - Everytime

Come notice me And take my hand
So why are we Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
i see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe That you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night i pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime i try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess i need you baby
And everytime i see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all,
After all........

Song= For Christ - My All In All

2004-10-19T13:20:00.000+08:00

Song= For Christ - My All In All

You are my strenth
when i am weak
You are the treasure that i seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Thy name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Thy name

Taking my sin,
my cross, my shame
Rising again I bless your name
You are my all in all
When i fall down,
you pick me up
When I am dry, you fill my cup
You are my all in all.

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Thy name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Thy name

Song= Brad Paisley - Holdin' On To You

2004-10-19T12:04:00.000+08:00

Song= Brad Paisley - Holdin' On To You

In a downtown restaurant with a friend of a friend
Well she(he) sure likes to talk and
i ain't heard a single word she's(he's) said

Oh, but every now and then i nod
And i pretend to pay attention
And i say things like, "uh huh"
And, "yeah, you're right" and "are you kiddin'"

And i laugh when it seems
Like the right thing to do
It's hard to hold a conversation
Holdin' on to you
I'd give anything

Just to hear your voice
Or see you look at me and smile
Oh but what i miss the most
Is holdin' on to you'cause here i am tonight
Starin' at a woman(man)
Who's the last thing on my mind

Song= Jack Johnson- FLAKE

2004-10-17T13:46:00.000+08:00

Song= Jack Johnson- FLAKE

It's raining outside.
One look at the sky,
makes me want to cry.
Memories of a hundred and one
fills my mind.
Of how we used to stay in,
hide under the covers and
hug to keep warm.
And the smile on your face
that melted my heart.
Of how we would channel surf
til we fall asleep,
And to wake up to find
your arms around me.
Of how I would tell you that I love you,
And that you would tell me
that you loved me too.
Of you playing GB,
And me laughing at your cute little
smiles and cheers that you won.
Of how you used to always tickle me,
And how I could never tickle you back.
Of how we made promises,
Agreeing that we would have 3 kids,
and have our honeymoon
decided at the airport
to where ever I point to
on the departrue board.
(Even if it's just to KL!)
Of how we said that
we'll be together forever.
And I still remember how happy I was.
It's still raining outside.
I'll get out from under the covers,
And look for you.
Even if it's still rainig outside.