Take me away, somewhere to watch the sunrise and sunset.
I realised, I still need you.
*the smiles & blushes* <3
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
I'm troubled!
So many, so messed up.
I dunno what to do.
Sigh.. I got myself into such shit.
Only have myself to blame.
Too messy!! :(((
Friday, September 29, 2006
YEPP!!! We quitted out damn job!
*yay* (((((((((((((((((:
Alrighty, that was ytd. I had dance today. And I feel that it's really stressful. Although things are getting better, I still feel that I haven't been able to perform as well as I've expected myself to. And especially when it comes to heels, I waded in them. My dance teacher commented that I looked queer dancing on heels, whick further dropped my confidence level. I dont know, walking in heels is already weird, imagine dancing and spinning in them. Funny as it sounds, I still prefer my goo old chinese dance. Maybe it's the familiarity I grew up with, or the comfort I feel while dancing. Over here, msot of the times, I feel completely eager to get my steps right in a graceful manner. Damm, I'm still trying to get used to her style!!! I think it's me. Oh well, I am now considering hiphop and bellydance! I know I've been ranting about bellydance since.. well a long long time ago. I really wanna learn! If my mom agrees to sponsor, I hope. Honestly, I feel quite sick of modern and contempt already! Therefore, I thought of trying out hiphop. I used to tell people I cant do hiphop for nuts. Now, it's time to challange myself! I SHALL conquer hiphop!! =D
Well, havent met up with gaga for a LOoooooooooooooooooNG time! All that promo's fault!! I really hope that we'd be able to have a blast of fun after the exams. Sad to say, I know I havent been of the best support to him, but I've been trying. Sorry k. Hmmm. I'm so so looking forward to after next friday!! I keep thinking and dreaming 'bout it. Seems so near, yet so far away! Ahaha. Gogogo!!! Study hard K?! <3 <3
Went shopping with Michelle and Jo on tuesday. was nice meeting them again. Actually we kinda went restaurant hopping that day. I spent all my money!! Now I'm pokkai!! AHHHH!!!! *faints*
Speaking of which, I feel really bad today! Cos I actually let myself walk pass an old man asking people to buy tissue from him!!! ='( He looked really pitiful! But I was so really super broke, I just just... just walked past like that! SO hardhearted right?! After walking away for quite some time, I really wanted to run back to give him some money. But I didn't in the end. Disappointed in myself. He looked like he had some kinda skin disease. I still remember how he stood in the middle of the path begging people to help. But everyone kinda shunned him. Somehow, afraid the disease might be contagious. It's really sad. I always say how I hated i when I see people not helping when someone is in need, and there I am, being of of those who merely walked pass. I feel... like... shit. But still, I'll go back to give that old man some bucks tmr!! Hope he'll still be around. hee
I love WeeTing!! She always makes my day with all her crap and nonsense! Well, she's the lamest freak you can find anywhere I tell you. But still, I simply love her loads!! Thanks for always accompanying me everywhere!! =))
HAH! Gotta go catch some sleep. Dance tomorrow again. AHBOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Been so long since I last updated.
Ahhhh. nobody reads my blog anymore. ))=
Ok, some random thoughts..
After so long, I feel really kinda disappointed to see the Pinkies gradually seperating. Remember how united and bonded we used to be during demo trainings? How we always went to Sentosa to suntan together? Sigh. I nearly feel that my plans for Pinkies physical training have gone down the drains. Or rather, it already did. Now it's down to me and WeeTing. I feel quite glad that at least one person shared the same goal as me and really wanted to train hard when it comes to tkd. I know that for everyone else, there are many outside activites and commitments. Maybe for you guys, tkd doesn't come in your top few priorities. I understand. But me and WeeTing will continue to train hard, in hope that one day, the Pinkies will gather together to train hard like we used to. (Right, Weeting??) I really wish we could all go to Korea together..
I havent been seeing or hearing much from # anymore. And sometimes, I really wonder if it was cause of *. After going to * once and not continuing anymore, I might have somehow or rather placed an unspoken strain between the both of us. I feel almost uneasy and maybe even 'guilty' when we're together. Though I know I shouldnt, at times I pushed the blame to * which soiled our friendship. Neither of us mentioned anything of such, and I'm not even sure if she felt the same. Although we might still look as close on the outside, but that something inside of me tells me that things're never the same again. I really missed those days. I remembered how she'd always joke about anything and everything, tell me lame stuffs and ask me stupid questions. She never failed to put a smile on my face. In fact, on all our faces. Still, I wonder if I might have been a little too sensitive. Maybe she is still who she used to be? Maybe I was just thinking too much. I still remember back then, before our exams ended, we said we'd go learn dance together. How I wanted Salsa and she wanted Hiphop. And we finally decided and Salsa Hiphop. We never did it in the end.
Well, I guessed we've all been too busy trying to keep up with our hectic lives...
Thursday, August 31, 2006
I cried to myself when I listened to that song, our song.
Taurus and Scorpio
When Taurus and Scorpio come together in a love affair, their union is nothing if not intense, whether that's in a positive or a negative way. They are opposite Signs in the Zodiac, giving them a special, complex connection. They can combine to make a whole, each partner's strengths balancing the other's weaknesses. Their sexual attraction is likely to be off the charts! Taurus and Scorpio have tons in common, but because their personalities are so powerful, they often swing between passionate love and passionate disagreement! Taurus and Scorpio both have deep desires, Taurus for possessions and Scorpio for power. They're both concerned with wealth and resources, and they're both intensely passionate about all sorts of things. Taurus is a bit more self-focused than Scorpio, who is more concerned with their lover and immediate family. Both of these Signs have a great, deep-rooted need for security in a relationship, but with slightly different focuses. While Taurus prizes honesty and forthrightness and abhors infidelity, Scorpio loves to be mysterious. A Scorpio's need for security is more about the need to be constantly reassured that their emotional connection with their loved one is strong. The good thing is, Taurus needs this reassurance too -- and is also willing to provide it for their Scorpio lover.Taurus is ruled by Venus (Love and Money) and Scorpio is ruled by Mars (Passion) and Pluto (Power). This combination is very intense, thanks to Pluto's influence, but it's an excellent balance of masculine and feminine energy. Scorpio and Taurus together form the basis of all love relationships -- love and passion. Venus and Mars go well together; Venus is about the beauty of romance, and Mars is about the passion of romance. Scorpio is smoldering and intense (and intensely sexual), and Taurus, a sensual and tireless lover, is attracted to this intensity. In turn, Scorpio enjoys the devotion inherent in Venus-ruled Taurus. Taurus is an Earth Sign and Scorpio is a Water Sign. Scorpio tends to be very deep -- like an ocean, too much upset will cause a tidal wave! When Scorpio feels crossed by a lover, watch out for that Scorpion's tail, which can whip out and sting their lover without warning! It's a good thing that these two Signs are so strongly loyal to each other. But while Taurus is open, with everything laid bare on the surface, Scorpio is more secretive and inscrutable. They can both teach one another about their opposite views of life (direct versus complex). Another factor adding a tantalizing dimension to this union is the two Signs' mutual tendency toward jealousy. Taurus loves it when Scorpio displays their jealous -- it means Taurus is adored and appreciated!Taurus and Scorpio are both Fixed Signs. This means they're both pretty stubborn and resolute once their minds are made up. Let's hope their minds agree -- if not, they're prone to fights the likes of which neither experiences with any other Sign. Taurus seems to prevail as the dominant partner, but that's not always the case. Scorpio can "win" through more devious means, such as employing emotional manipulation to get what they want. These partners must learn to discuss their views and needs openly and to reach a compromise if they want their union to be lasting and happy. This largely depends on Scorpio's ability to learn to trust Taurus. The relationship will only fail if the two partners truly cannot overcome their opinionated, fixed stances.
What's the best aspect of the Taurus-Scorpio relationship? Their powerful connection that can shine when obstacles to intimacy are cleared away. When Scorpio realizes that Taurus is there for the long term and won't create the misery that some Scorpios attract to their lives, this relationship can blossom.
Thursday, August 17, 2006
I missed the times when you were there for me no matter what.
The days when I knew I was the only one you truely cared about.
Every little things that you did.
We both knew.
How you used to motivate me to study,
and taught me math and science.
Of us studying together at Macdonalds
and our classrooms.
And when I always wanted to give up halfway through,
You never failed to think of new ways to make me strive harder.
You enabled me to find a purpose in my life and a goal to word towards.
How you learnt the piece when
I told you I liked it,
but I never got to hear it in the end.
How you told me things to make me a better person, and
there wasn't once I ever felt insulted.
How you always stood by me
to give me advises when
I'm at my lowest point in life.
How you helped me carry my huge bag or any other heavy stuffs.
How you opened doors for me,
bought meals for me and
made me feel like a little princess sometimes.
How you bought happymeal for me,
because you knew I liked the toy.
I remembered how we fixed the toy together and filmed it down.
And you got laughed at be the casher.
How you bought vitaminC for me
when I kept falling ill.
I remembered you even bought the kids type so that I'd like it more.
How we could spend all our times together and not get bored..
In the end we needed to go and
I remembered how we kept promising to keep in touch no matter what.
Of how we said we'd meet up at least once a month.
Thanksforallthetimes.
I'llrememberyoufortherestofmylife...
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
SENTOSA ROCKS MY SOCKS!!
Saturday:
woke up at 6am to get ready.
met gaga and headed to harbourfront.
almost everyone was late.
we had breakfast at the nearby hawkercentre.
then we were off to sentosa!! yay!
some of the ppl didn't turn up last minute.
but we still had fun though.
played beach vball and kayaked.
the suntanning was good too!
i love the sun!! =)
later in the evening,
we cabbed down to bukit timah for dinner,
and had training at tohyi after that.
I cabbed home, and was back just before midnight.
GRADING
Sunday:
woke up at 6 again.
I'm so not used to gettin up early anymore.
so I had to force myself outta bed.
rushed down to geylang west.
sparred with meixian.
then as usual, we lunched at geylang.
Sir drove us to suntec to shop.
it was quite weird but fun shopping with them.
but we all kept stopping to eat.
we went back in the evening.
I was totally exhausted.
MONDAY
I merely slacked my day thru at home
I was too shagged to move too much.
Managed to find that bit of motivation
to head to the gym though.
it feels good working out again. :]
went out to buy lunch,
and i fell asleep halfway thru lunch and tv
kinda overslept,
and was late for tkd.
the kids there are difficult to teach.
but I survived that anyway. haha
TUESDAY
today, I still can't help but slack.
I'm really too tired to do anything.
and sth sucked away my enthusiasium.
I feel so seperated and tired.
I don't know what to do.
but well, life goes on.
I really missed those days
which i'll nv experience again.
at least not in the couple of years.
things are different now,
I guess we just have to live to
adapt to changes.
that's life anyway.
I MISS YOU.
well, think i'm going to the library later.
c'ya soon~